wordless post #1

tak semua yg kita impikan akan kita kecapi...tapi berusahalah untuk mencapai apa yg diimpikan...sabar diba...

-sometimes I becomes ungrateful servant , becouse I wish I am a princess in fairy tales...who always end with happy ever after...

suraimi rashidi~

bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

about 1 week ago(sunday)


suraimi a.k.a poe : akak...pogram ni berapa lama?
k.adib : pogram ni setahun...so setahun la akak jadi mentor...kirenye smpai september tahun depan...
poe : oo..tahun depan tu akak ajar mentee yg same ke taw tukar mentee...ye la, tahun dpn kn poe msok form3..akak still ajar form 1 gn form 2 gk ke???
k.adib : errrmmmm...x sure a poe...t akak tnye org yg uruskn bnde ni...npe?? takot akak x ajar ea...kih3...
poe : (tersenyum2, tergelak2 je...lam hati : perasan gle akak ni) bukan ape...akak ajar poe faham la...tahun depan kn nk PMR da...
k.adib :  owh...ok3..(yeeeeaaaaaahhuuuuuuu!! mentee aq takot kehilangn aq! haha...poe ni pown da byk ckp da gn aq..x diam je cm sebelom ni...siap main gelak2 ag tu gn aq...ceh...da ade chemistry a kiteorg! aq sayang mentee aq...dye baik gn aq...hehe)


{abis kt semua orang adib ni cerita pasal mentee die...ish3...suke bebenor}

about a few hour ago(sunday)


poe : akak..akak jadi mentor smpai tahun depan ea??
k.adib : (dgn gembiranya menjawab) yeaaa poe...=) =)
poe : (ckp smbil tertunduk2..) tahun depan mgkin poe da x de kt sini da...
k.adib : (terkejut gle!! jgn main2 la poe) eh kenapa lak? (sedih mula membina tapak di dlm hati)
poe : duduk rumah..x duduk sini dah...
k.adib : bile berhenti?? (cover sedih n terkejut)
poe : samada lepas habis exam ni x pown tgu habis sekolah dlu...(dok tertunduk2 je dri tadi...)
k.adib : sure ke ni??????????(x nak caye n x caye)
poe : ermmmm....da cakap da gn mak...


tetibe background sound berbunyik...: okeyh!! mentee bole mule jawab sekarang ea...mentor bole ajar mentee...mentee catatkn ape2 yg penting dlm buku ea....

k.adib : (kacau a background music ni...baru nk tacing2...)
k.adib : k...poe wt soalan science ni dulu...poe ok x science?
poe : (tersengih2....)
k.adib : k..yg ni senang je 'cell as basic unit of life'...cube wt dlu soalan tu...cmni cmni cmni cmni......


adoiiii...ade je yg kacau....cian poe..poning dye...byk sgt suara...

k.farah : yg ni bukan 2 layer taw..satu je...animal cell ade satu layer je...
poe : taw da salah...hehe
k.adib : adehhh...pakcik tu da advance sgt belajar....xpe3 poe...poe hafal mne yg poe beajar je...yg lain x yah...
k.adib and poe : hehehehe...
k.adib : ermmm....kenapa poe nk berhenti?? x suke duduk sini ke?
poe : ermmmm....x suke la duduk sini....
k.adib : ermm..knpe dlu poe masuk sini??
poe : sebab pakcik warden kt sini...
k.adib : owhhhhh...(sedih3!!!) maknanye mingu ni la kite last jmpe...sbb mgu dpn akak x dtg...ade final exam...
poe : x sure samada berhenti ujong mgu ni x pown akhir tahun nnti...
k.adib :(diam...x mampu nk kate pape lagi) ermmm...kene buli ke kat sini??
poe : (geleng2) tension a duk sini.....
k,adib : (nothing to say)


background music(sound la sebenarnye) : ok...sume mentor gn mentee bole kumpul kt blkg...kte nk wt game ni...

semua bergembira ketika main...ahak...poe kalah dulu....kih3...
bile k.adib kalah and kene duduk poe dtg dudk blkg k.adib...


k.adib : (sukenye tgok dye tersenyum masa main ni....last smile i can see from him, happy je dye main...='(      )


bile da abis main game....

k.adib : poe nnti belajar rajin2 taw....ermm..sori lah ..akak x de bnde nk kasi...x sgke lak yg ni last....(mood sedih smbil tercover2...)
poe : (terangguk2)




k.farah : adib...awak kasi lah buku gen Q ni kat poe...
k.adib : eh..tapi kn awak nk kasi buku ni kt sazrul???
k.farah : xpela....sazrul x de...x dtg...awak kasi la kt poe...lpas ni awak x jmpe dye da kn....
k.adib : farah , sedih!!!!!
k.farah : saya pown sedih gak..law saya taw mentee saya balik rumah , saya x dtg tdi...baik saya blik rumah...
k.adib ; sengal la farh...org tga tacing ni...adehhh...


k.adib : poe...nah buku gen Q ni...bace taw...(i already write inside it with a few word...{special to poe...good luck in your life...egat Allah selalu} ) bace taw buku ni...
poe : (terangguk2...k.suha n k.farah kate poe mcm tgah sedih je)
k.adib : poe...jowm tangkap gambar...=)

farah said die da nak sama tinggi gn saya...adakah die semakin meninggi ataupown saya x cukup tinggi lagi...and suha  mcm biase a...mesti a mengng punyer law bab ketinggian ni...

okeyh...tibe masa untuk mentor pulang ke kolej...
k.adib : poe...mgu dpn akak exam...final exam..doakn akak taw...
poe : ha...ok....
k.adib : kalau ade pape masalah ke contact la akak ea...tdi akak da kasi no. kt buku poe...belajar rajin2 taw...
poe : (anguk tertunduk2...)


when i walk out , he follow me...then he sit at the stair which can see the gate where mentor go out...when i look back he wave his hand....when i step out from Rumah Anak Yatim Taman Tun Dr Ismail(TTDI) i look back again and he wave again to me...when i in the bus , i cant control my sadness...when the bus moving...i can see he wave his hand again...a few minute later....

im crying in the bus...

when im crying , i keep thinking...why should im crying? its normal when pogram mentor mentee...every pogram mentor mentee at school i never cry when mentor want go back and leave us in te hostel...owh yeah...they just make a program to fullfill their silibus....

farah and nasuha said that poe sayang awak la diba...sbb die nmpk sedih...org lain pown ade tegor die..sbb nmpk sgt la die sedih...

saya pown sayang kt poe...sbb dye baik gn saya and bile saya ajar die dgar and die faham...(x taula klau dye wat2 faham..hehe) poe had said that he undestand what i teach him..and he asking me whether i stay be his mentor until he take PMR...

KITA MERANCANG ALLAH MENENTUKAN...

poe decide to stay at his home at nogori sembilan....
this will be our last meeting...bile umur panjang and ade rezeki insya Allah kite jumpe lagi poe...

dear poe...
be a good boy who taat kt mak n ayah,,,.
be a good student who try the best in the exam and study...
be a good member who always lend hand to help others...
be a good person who can be usefull to the world...
and..
be a good muslim who follow what Allah say in Quran and hadis and also left behind bnde2 yg Allah larang...


i also sad bcoz aq x sentuh lagi bab2 agama gn die...egat nk bina chemistry dlu gn die...baru egat mgu ni nak msok bab2 agama..then mgu ni poe kasi bad news lak...Allah know everything...ade hikmahnye...

aq takut untuk lepaskn poe..aq takut untuk lihat die berada di dunia luar...bolehkah die tahan dgn pelbagai godaan dunia kini yg makin mengganas...

Ya Allah Kau lindungilah poe,, semoga die berada di kalangn org beriman dan beramal soleh...

ameen....

scary term!!

about 4 week until....

FINAL EXAM!!!

serius cuak!

exam pasum bukan mcm nilam puri...

at pasum all paper about science subject...

and of course la hard i thought(UM la katekan)

however...

TO ALL MY FRIENDS(dijah especially...sbb dye semangat gn aq nk study same2...tp hampeh kot...hehe)

LETS DO OUR BEST IN THIS FINAL...

BUT!!!!

jgn lupa niat belajar lillahi taala...

IM Nuri kata : jgn lupa tuntut keredhaan Allah dan ibu bapa dlm menuntut ilmu...

bcoz...redha Allah terletak pada keredhaan ibu bapa...

yg terlibat dgn mcm2 aktiviti luar jgn terabai study lak..and niat tu kasi btol skit...papepown kembali lah kepada Ya Rabb...

nak carik duit setinggi KK12 ni pown crik lah...tapi , jgn sehingga menduakan Maha Pencipta...rezeki itu miliknya...=)

BITTAUFIQ WANNAJAH!

usaha (study hard and study smart, study group)

+

doa (lillahi ta'ala ,solat hajat , solat tahajud , solat dhuha , solat taubat)

+

tawakal (my uztaz say : usaha ,doa,tawakal before entering examination hall , doa when answering exam , tawakal when step out from exam hall)

=

insya Allah mumtaz fil imtihan..^^

a reminder for my self of course!

and to my fellow friends...

uhibbukum lillah~

~my nerve system become nervous!~

i'm superkakak!

bismillahirrahmannirrahim...

first thing can i ask you to do something....?

tell the world that im coming home!

home sweet home!

baiti jannati!

yeah!

im at home right now..

happy nk guling-guling!

haha..

dulu mase sekolah asrama aku pelik gle tgok orang beria nk balik rumah..

padahal tiap2 minggu balik..

ntah pape tah..

skrg baru aq taw nikmatnye balik rumah bile seminggu berhempas pulas kt kolej...

yela..dulu rumh aku jauh...

balik mase cuti semester je..

dari form 2 smpi la kt UM Nilam Puri...

kat rumah memang aku terbongkang je la..

kt kolej susah nk wt cmni..

x tenteram aku klau terbongkang je kt kolej...

mesti teringat tutorial la...

note la..

test la..

tu laa..

ni laaa..

p kt uma aq x ingat pown kt semua tu...

haha..

best3!!

kt rumah bermula kerja aku sebagai seorang kakak...

bla bla bla...

semua kerja rumah yg umi da khas kn tuk aq...

haha...

aq on je la wat sume tu...

aq kn superkakak...

i can do it as long i dont do this two thong : 

-sleeping

-sitting in front lappy..

klau aku da wat due bnde ni aq bkn lagi superkakak..

tapi...

super duper lazzzzzzyyy!

duduk kt rumah mood memasak tibe2 datang..

yeah!

nak berbuka tu aku n umi wt kuih onde2 and karamael..

okey la gk..

1st time wt kan..

karamel umi aq x penah makan ag..

even adik aq kate sedap...

sbb bau susu!

x suke!

pasni nak try bauat macaroon la plak..

look tasty!

esok da nak balek kolej..

bkn x gembira..

suka je..

tapi bila fikirkan tentang b.arab...

i cant smile..

for me it the tough subject...

i learned it since primary school..

but i cant score on it...

somtimes fed up tu dtg menjelma..

rase nak campak jaoh2 je b.arab ni..

means..

get out from this course...

then i remember this quote or hadis dont remember...

'Allah tidak akan membebankan hambanya dgn apa yg tidak mampu dilakukannya...sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu"

and also this..

setiap kesusahan pasti ade kesenangn...

yes i do love arabic!

i love to speak in arabic!

i love to understand Quran!

but i cant do well in arabic...

im dissappointed...

if i get out from this course for sure im not taking arabic anymore :))

but...(there always 'but' in my live :(  )

dalam apids ni lah baru aq berubah..

sedikit demi sedikit...

maybe aq bkn yg terbaik sprt yg lain2 dlm apids ni...

kadang2 tu aq rse cm x layak je be in apids...

mcm titik yg hitam je aq ni kt apids....

aku x dpt kasi gambaran student agama untuk apids ni....

im sorry my dear cousemate...

no , not coursemate..

my dear friends.....

kalau aq keluar...

x tahu la cmne rupe aq nnti..

yes~

aq mudah terpengaruh dgn kawan...

aq sedar diri aq x kuat untuk berada sorang2 di dlam lautan manusia yg pelbagai itu...

untung berada dlm apids ni ade yg sudi tarik aq jika aq tersesat..

ade yg sudi membantu jika aq keliru..

even sometimes(always) cara mereka wat aq kecik ati n sakit ati..

but klau da memang sala lam agama nk wt pe marahkan?

terima lah..

and cube perbaiki diri...

(even it hard)

pape pown ...

innallah ma'ana~